One year, six months and one day on . .

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That's how long it is since my eldest daughter passed away.  I wrote a blog during her illness and have decided to start one up again.

Grief is a monster.  It sneaks up on you, sometimes when you least expect it.   Last weekend I went to a Trophy Shop in town to purchase an award to present in memory of Melissa.  It is awarded to the pupil who shows enthusiam or inspires others in a particular lesson or subject. 

The inscription on the award is . . . . "To inspire is within us all"

Today is a bad day.  My head is spinning, I have a headache.  I'm on anti depressants.  I'm trying not to let those around me see how much I am hurting.  My thoughts pass from what we did, to what we'll never do again. 

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    I have read your blogs Ian and my heart goes out to you.  I can't really offer you any words that will lessen your suffering but just want to let you know that I am thinking of you.  

    Sue

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Yes - what we will never do again - the worst feeling in the world.

    Some days the fact you did get to do it is enough, others it just adds to the pain.

    Love to you.  Judi xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hello Ian...As sue say..sometimes no words of comfort can lessen your suffering...i have a daughter 2 years older and would not know what i would do if i lost her at such a young age....keeping her memory alive by donating a trophy is a good start..thinking of all the good times you have shared with her..planting a rose in her memory is another good way...knowing she is watching what you are doing and would certainly approve is maybe a good way of getting through the bad days....and when times are hard and we have our bad days we have our friends ...don.t suffer in silence...i am sure they would understand...and thats what this site is all about..when you need to talk there are people who will listen and give you that help if needed..my thoughts are with you .

             johnb..

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    I am so sorry - the pain you must feel, I wish I could say something wise, but I'm not very good at that.

    I bet you were a wonderful dad to her - im sure she'd be just as proud of you as you are of her,

    keep hangin in there, love Jeanie x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    i am so sorry for the hurt you are feeling -memories of the things you used to do together are so upsetting .try to think of the fun times although this isnt easy & try to share your feelings .