Hi all
On Monday it's my three monthly Onc check up, it only seems like a month since the last one, so this means another routine CT no doubt (but of course that's a good thing). I know I'm far from being the only one, but I always dread these appointments, it's like having to face up to the reality of what's lurking around my body - thankfully 'under control' at present, waiting to pounce? (If I stop my daily affirmations, taking the happy pills, having Reiki, dancing round naked at midnight having drank bats blood (normal Friday night for me then!)and hanging upside down off the washing line ... will it begin to creep it's way through my lymphatic system, or blood? Obviously some of my rituals are true, some not .... do I look like the type of person who would take happy pills, for goodness sake!!! lol)
Then there's the waiting for the results, the CT operator (Radiographer? is that what they're called?) with a totally impassive look on their face ... they must have special training to look so blank! So you then hang around for a couple of weeks (not on the washing line, honest!) waiting for either a phone call (bad news :( ) or a letter (good news? Usually :) )
But the very best thing is getting the support and good wishes, or commiserations, from your 'Cancer Buddies' ... many of whom are in a much worse situation than yourself , yet are still able to rejoice at your good news or empathise/sympathise with the bad.
So to anyone who is going through the nightmare of appointments, tests, biopsies, treatment etc. remember you are not alone .... we're all on this journey with you.
Take care friends!
Carole xx
