I had mysecond taxotare nearly 3 weeks ago and have never felt so ill, before that i really enjoyed going into the chat room and chatting to everyone but i have felt so bad i havnt wanted to as i didnt want to bore everyone with my moaning. I just need to talk or write how i feel. I had my second taxotare nearly 3 weeks ago,the first few days werent to bad but then i got an infection in my hickman line, the hospital gave my antibiotics and have felt realy bad since then, i have no energy (i know taxotare causes fatigue but this is much worse), my temperature keeps going realy high, have no apitite, feel sick all the time, generally feel very ill and im due for my 3rd chemo on friday which i am dreading, last friday i started shivering my whole body was shaking and it lasted for over an hour and half,was quite scary. I just feel so depressed but know i shouldnt as there are so many people worse of than me, i am also worrying that when treatment finishes they will tell me it has gone somewhere else. I dont know why as i have coped realy well i have never let the fact i have cancer get me down,its always been Oh well never mind just got to get on with it, I dont know whether its the taxotare, infection or the antibiotics thats making me feel so ill. I just want to feel normal again and stop being such a misery. Sorry for boring anyone that reads this, just needed to moan and think probably my family must be getting fed up with listening to me. My husband has been great but i feel guilty that he is going to work then coming home and doing everything. Surely with only 1 chemo and 1 month radio to go i should be feeling alright so dont know why i am feling scared about the future.Hope i can soon start feeling better and can get back in the chat room as i realy miss you all. Sending lots of hugs Carol xxxxx
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Thankyou to you all for your very kind words of support its so good to have so many friends like you who understand what its like. I have my last chemo friday so even if i do feel rough its only for another few weeks, they are also taking my line out so that should be better. Ive decided to give myself a good kick up the bum and snap out of this depression mood, there are so mmany poeple worse of than me. Thankyou all for your kind works, hope things all turn out good for you, sending much love hugs and kisses to you all carol2xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hi Carol, I can totally empathise with how you feel. Last year, as I was approaching my third chemo, I actually nearly stopped it altogether as I was feeling so rough. I felt I had only a couple of days recovery between the sessions, and then I was off again for the next onslaught. I had a good cry at home and then again when I was "soaking" my hand at the hospital, and the nurse came in and reassured me that what I was feeling was totally normal.
I actually felt worse on AC, and seemed to cope a lot better with Taxotere, which shows you how everyone reacts so differently to the different drug regimens! All I can say Carol, is that you are so close to the finishing line now, and if you can dig deep and find the resources to get you through the last cycle, you will have such a sense of achievement at the end it is almost worth the misery!!! Seriously though, it's amazing the difference a few months make, I had my last chemo in November and now can hardly remember how dreadful it was (must be like childbirth!)
Finally, and again I must stress this was just my personal experience, but I found radiotherapy a walk in the park after chemo!!
Take care and maybe speak soon in the chat room. Love Jayne x
... compared to concomittant Radio and Chemo. I've experienced both options, and found the radiotherapy on its own built up quire slowly, and I didn't get unmanageable side-effects until the final few days. I even travelled there and back on taking 4 buses a day. With chemo, the side effect hit within hours, and even walking to the bus stop felt like trekking across the Himalayas (only a lot less fun!). After the first time, it had to be taxis! I added that up at about £500. Of course it depends where the beams are being directed, as Jayne says. Well, Carol don't think you need kick up the bum, just a big hug! Good luck xxxx Penny
