start at the beginning

Hi  Rose,  Yes, we remember that day so very well. You sit there thinking whatever they found will be a cyst, blocked milk duct or a benign fatty tumour. Then you notice a breast nurse is in there with you all and you put two and two together - You brain says don't be daft she's just a nurse - still in denial...

The moment you hear those words you dread your ears shut down and you cannot take anything else in "so that is why they always advise you take someone in with you" to take in what you miss while in dumbstruck mode. You get told about a treatment plan, they're still talking about someone else right ?
You get back home and look at the pile of Macmillan and Cancercare booklets and leaflets you were given - OMG it really is my turn on the Roller Coaster........

From then on the next 6 to 12 months of your life your feet won't touch the ground, and will be governed by hospital appt's and that feeling of losing control of your own life. You realise you need a calendar with a large text box to write everything in - a diary would be better...  Something to look back on and refer too if you need info later on.

Looking back after being cut, poisoned, radiated, you find an inner strength you didn't know you have and emerge from that dark tunnel into the sunshine gradually getting to know the new you and realise this warrior princess you have found within will be a great help in the future, YES, you have now been given a future  :-)   You will have found out who your "real" friends are and no longer suffer fools gladly and now take shi* from no-one - Phone pests beware  :-)

We are thankfully at the end of treatment all bar the 5 year of tablets - There will be days when you feel totally wiped out, but It's all very do'able Rose. Please post in the breast forum your stage, grade, lymph involvement etc and your treatment plan when you feel comfortable doing so and we'll all help you along this rocky road. There are loads of us all at various stages of this journey and are more than willing to share what we have found out to guide you along.

It really is strange how so many who work in healthcare seem to end up in this club no-one wants to join.  Jackie works at a residential nursing home and our daughter is doing a nursing (BN) degree at uni.  
Kindest wishes and very best of luck, George & Jackie. 

Rolls on floor laughing - and after all that typing I now realise you were diagnosed in May and have been there, done that and it's the blog that is only 7 hours old......  I really need an early morning coffee...

Hi Dreamthief, you are not the only one in need of coffee, I read your second message first and thought what is this person on??? lol then I read your longer message and it clicked! I will update my blog more in the next day or so but I started it very late at night which is a tendency I have.

i may have been there and done that but trust me any advice, support etc from anyone is gratefully received as I kind of feel like I am in Nomans land at the moment.

Kind regards

Rose xx