In June 2003 my dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer-we were devastated but for 11 and a half years he was fine and dandy, still worked as a builder and continued wheeling and dealing with very few or no effects.This year he began going down hill but managed to go to Benidorm and manage his beloved pigeons.Things deteriorated and he eventually passed away 3 weeks ago on 12th November.
May 2014-Mam,aged 69 fit and well,looks fab.Saw GP with a cough and small bit of blood coughed up twice-chest xray clear.
October 22nd 2014-Second chest xray- shows "something"-the GP told her "it might be lung cancer".I cannot convey the initial devastation,immediately denial-no its TB then as the days went on we soothed ourselves with if its cancer its very early as May xray clear so surgery and cured!!
The consultant was great- we (me my mam and aunty) liked him alot (quite dishy and very young)!!
Confirmed lung cancer-both lungs extensive-in a nutshell-the first xray was not clear-we could see there was a large tumor top of left lung.Consultant actually put his hand to his mouth when he realised what had happened (nothing to do with him). We went home and told my poor dad-13 days before he died-Im shaking my head as I write this as its soo bloody unfair.
The following weeks were an actual living nightmare,my dad deteriorated daily,asking me if my mam will be ok-he didnt want to leave her to face this alone (fifty years together). These weeks have been the worst of my life. EVERY day brought more misery,more bad news,more shit!
SOCIAL EXPERIMENT?? I felt like I was part of a social experiment-(ever seen the Truman Show??) I thought people are voting for things to happen to me, to see how much misery I can take? 10,000 votes for my car not to start, 5000-make her lose her phone, a million votes that she misses her dad die after being there all day!. As they say you could'nt write it could you !!
I will finish there for today,sounds like a complete moan now I read it back-Im hoping that once I get up to date it may help someone,somewhere,sometime know that they are not going mad!
,Geenie x
