Well im home and really unhappy about today
I was suppose to get the news i have waited so long to hear 10 weeks
10 long weeks and today was going to be my day they were going to tell me what i have next whether it was surgery or chemo and more importantly when it would start
I had 2 scans done last week a CT and a micro bubble ultra sound scan so they could have a good look and decide
Well that decision didnt happen im so angry frustrated upset very tearful
I know that they only want whats best for me and there trying to help me and for that im greatful
Now the reasons they cant do it just now or if it will ever be possible is because i now have 9 lesion on my liver and 2 of the lesions are right beside my hepatic vein the main blood supply and there on the left side not good news as all the rest are on the rightside so that mean there not sure if they can put the stent in to block off the blood supply to the right because the cancer would grow very fast because the 2 lesions that are on the left beside the vein will get all the blood and grow very fast
No i dont do things by half mesures do i
I cant believe i have 9 lesions not the dot on the first ct not even the 3 on the 2nd or the 5 on the 3rd but now because they have taken so long i have 9 i cant put into words how i feel but gutted is a mild way of describing
Well i have to return to the hospital next thursday and by then he said they would have made a decision
Im sorry this is such a depressing blog i hope the next one will be better and would like to add my thanks to everyone in the chat room for listening to me rant and rave on about this so often love and hugs to you all xxxxx
FormerMember
you really are stuck between a rock and a hard place!! Sending some positive vibes to you ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~VIBES~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ and hang on for just a bit longer so they can make the right decision for you. Youve done so well coping with all of this worry for such a long time and I am sure we all feel for you tonight. Something will be sorted soon. Lots of support and love, Jools xx
Rose, we are gathering our strenght from sharing your journey. They will have this sorted out for you and get you on the right track. Keep up your strong will and determinations and know that we all are here for the support and concern you need. Your chat buddy, Melinda
Rose this has been so disappointing news for you but all is not over yet - next week when you see docs again they will have had chance to re assess and hopefully will have more better news for you. Everything seems to have moved slowly but they will help get you sorted but the frustration of the waiting game is so hard. Chin up girl.
You are not Superwoman my love and it's ok to be angry/frustrated/scared. Ten weeks was a long time to wait to get the sort of news you got and I so understand your disappointment. BUT, they have a clearer picture of what's happening and if they had gone ahead with the original ideas you would be in a lot more trouble so we must focus on that little glimmer of positivity and now look to what CAN be done. I know it's not going to be easy but take this time to take a deep breath and conciously relax your muscles, one set after another so that you can relax your body to help it in it's fight against this 'enemy'. Rest my love and gather strength for your next appointment.
