It already seems like a routine to be visiting hospitals or doctors on a more or less daily basis, so today I finally had a day with neither on the horizon. Also today I have to get some work done, it's been a very quiet week on that front, all the work that has come up clashed with an appointment so I have had to to knock it back. This is the other cost of cancer kicking in. But is has always been my choice to work for myself, so shut up and get on with it.
Went to see my own GP earlier in the week and during the conversation I mentioned having problems with the minor irritation of immediate memory loss - well really it's only forgetfulness. That's not surprising with this thing at the forefront of everything else, and that's the view of the doctor as well. Along with sleeplessness she arrived at the conclusion of me being depressed. Small wonder isn't it? So she prescribed me a mild anti depressant for a limited time, on the basis that if my brain relaxed it would cope better and also ease the forgetfulness. Got the prescription filled on Wednesday, took the first tablet - no problems or side effects. However when it came to last nights tablet I had forgotten where I had put them and spent ages searching with no luck. Still haven't found them yet. I did remember the down side of them though. No red wine until the course is taken (sad violins playing in the background) I've already lost my cigarettes and my coffee. The first, well so what I should have done it years ago so I needn't mourn tobacco. But losing my coffee and wine is tragic.
Also I finally managed to get hold of my sister and tell her the "good news". It doesn't look as if my (separated) wife is going to be getting in touch with me either, that's a relief because it would be an awkward conversation I don't want to have. Especially with the cancelled insurances that were the topic of my last post. That's what may be stopping her phoning me.
Just paused to write a couple of notes on my whiteboard in front of this terminal and guess the next bit..... couldn't remember where my postit notepad was. My mate Dan and I have started calling this "youngzheimers" disease.
Getting myself organised for my stay in hospital, loading up my laptop with the various films I've never had chance to see yet and a pile of audio books as well. Bet I forget the headphones, lol. Or the more likely scenario is I get told I can't use it until it's been checked as electrically safe by their electrician, that's what happened on my last stay in hospital on an unconnected matter to this.
Anyway I must get some invoices done and sent to keep the man in the bowler hat happy so enough for now and full steam ahead to my pre-op on Monday.
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Hi Bren,
Overall you sound quite good actually. I am happy for you in that respect, and yes, I bet it felt good to not have to deal with doc appts and tests for one day anyway! Can totally relate to that. Do hope you get the insurance thing sorted out, really bothers me she did that. OH well! Hope you get your rest and remember how to get here so you can pick up my post! hahaha Best, Lori
There's not really an answer to the insurance aspect, it's gone and no way would they restart cover with these circumstances. I am taking the view that she (maybe) didn't know what exactly it was because the alternative is only going to cause me stress I don't need right now. She's capable of doing it deliberately but it's a pointless exercise to find out for sure. So it means I keep on working as best as possible throughout, which is probably the best course of action anyway, I have a business I need to be in some sort of working fashion to come back to and keeping going is the best.
You might be surprised on the insurance. I've seen some no way, kind of things occur here in the states on this sort of thing. But, if you would have to now pay for it, its kind of hard if you are down to one income and that's a bit dicey right now too, it might not be worth trying to get it sorted out. Will this mean you go from private to public health care?
Hi Bren - I was glad to read in your Profile how fast the doctors etc have worked to get you into hospital on, I believe 25th November. I also experienced how very quick the NHS can actually work when treating serious illness. I think, from what I've read and my own experience too, that depression seems to go hand in hand with cancer very nicely. Not an ideal time to get either illness, and I'm glad that you have been given anti-depression medication, because fighting this bloody coward is hard enough. I was given anti-depression tablets at the start when I was first diagnosed. They took a couple of weeks to kick in, but after that I really did notice the difference, so good luck with them. Sure your (separated) wife will get in touch with you, having an illness like we do certainly seems to mend a few broken relationships - well, it's whatever YOU want that is important. Youngxheimers disease is a very good name and suits it to a T, lol Good that you're gonna stay occupied whilst in the hospital - the bloody boredom in those places - yawn! I feel tired just thinking about them, lol Good luck for your pre op on Monday and best of luck with ooodles of good wishes for your full and speedy recovery after 25th November - take care, hold on tight, with love Kate xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
