My husband and I held each other for most of the evening and poured our hearts out, we lay in bed together that night with the most horrific thoughts running through our heads, I finally fell asleep and woke about 3am.
I was very up and down all day, the support from family and friends was flooding in as they were finding out . My inlaws and one of my sister in laws had been to see me the previous day.
For my children's sake we tried to be as normal as possible and keep any negative emotion from them but it's very hard when the tears flow uncontrollably! Everyone keeps telling me to be strong but I have to admit I am struggling, the biopsy results take 2 weeks and right now I don't know how I can get through the next 2+weeks not knowing the extent of my cancer.
My girls have made me smile today, they're fantastic children and such characters. It breaks my heart to think that this awful disease has come into their lives at such a young age. My eldest is starting school after summer. Cancer has already touched our family in the last 12 months with my fabulous father in law being diagnosed with oral cancer, he's recovering amazingly and is an absolute inspiration.
I was planning to run the race for life in Aberdeen this coming Sunday however I'm quite sore after the biopsy. My Mum is insisting that she is still doing it and we'll do it together next summer.
My best friend is getting on a train in the morning at 6am for a 2hr journey to visit me for the day, she can always make me smile!
