26th June '12 - diagnosis

Id been to my GP with what I thought was a small lump in my left breast, I was told to come back in a month and in that time I had to use anti inflammatory cream and take evening primrose oil incase it was due to hormones.... A month later no change and I was referred however I was told that it was purely to rule anything bad out. About another month later and the 26th June is upon me, I happily go alone to the hospital and despite feeling slightly anxious I was still certain I'd be coming home to my family having been given the all clear. The consultant examined me then sent me for an ultrasound scan. Almost right way the sonographer found 2 small lumps and called for the cytopathologists to perform the fine needle aspiration and check the cells. I was then returned to the waiting area where I happily watched homes under the hammer and gazed out the window and the sunny day until the consultant had my results. About 1 hour later my world fell apart when I was taken to a room and in came my consultant followed by a cancer support nurse, I knew right away that it was bad news with their being two of them. I was in insant shock and not taking much in, the consultant explained that as there were 2 small lumps they were still unclear if both are in the breast or if the cancer has spread to my lymph nodes as one lump is on the outer edge of my breast, and if the cancer had spread I'd be looking at having both chemo and radiotherapy post op. I phoned my husband and my Mum who had my little girls. My husband was in Norway so immediately went to the airport and came home. My Mum and Dad came to the hospital to take me home. While waiting for my parents I had a mammogram, chest x-ray, a biopsy and bloods taken, all while in complete devestation, disbelief and fear for my future and what I was about to go through. The rest of that day is pretty much a blur... My parents stayed with me and my girls until my husband arrived home in the evening.