No news - is it good news? I don't think so.......

Well now - I haven't fallen off the face of the Earth. It's just that I have nothing much to tell - even tonight (Tuesday) nothing has changed. I still feel quite well (which must be good), I still have a job (which must be good) and I've just had a nice meal (which must be good). So, Dr Freud, does that mean that all is good? I'm not sure. Don't get me wrong - I'm nowhere near as low as I was last week. Nothing like it, at all. In fact, I feel really happy about life (and that's mostly thanks to you folks and your comments and PMs, which still keep coming. Thank You) My headache is that I haven't heard from the Consultant (Don't be stupid, man. You had the scan Thursday and it's only Tuesday night now. What do you expect?) Yes - I know. But.......does that mean that I'm not as bad as was first thought? The biopsy was positive - OK. But the MRI scan may have produced less important results, perhaps? So I drop down the list, in favour of more urgent cases. I'm all for that. There must be hundreds of people in the Salisbury catchment area, worse off than me. But...... (Yes, I know you all know what's coming........) That doesn't really help me, does it? They are really odd - the thoughts that are spinning around in my head. Let me try and explain. This time last year, I was a hulking great beast, full of life and thoroughly enjoying myself. Then, I went to my GP in October, because I didn't feel quite right. (What the heck does that mean, you fool?) Well, I didn't feel in October 2008, the way I felt in - say - April 2008. Strange but true! After a few tests and balances - and that awful Trans-Rectal Ultrasound, my world was gently flipped around a couple of weeks ago, by a lovely Clinical Nurse called Billy ( a lady called Billy?), who softly explained that the biopsies showed Locally Advanced Prostate Cancer. She gave me loads of information, papers, booklets and so on, then told me that the MRI scan would tell far more. The next evening, my GP called. He had heard my news and, if there was anything I needed to know - or if I had any questions - I only had to telephone the Health Centre. Wow! How's that for service? But now - it's all gone quiet. (Hell's Teeth, you idiot. Give them a chance to look at the scans.) Do you see where I'm at? I know there is nothing that can be done. Nothing anyone can say or do - but I think the main reason for this post is to try and help others who feel ...... let down (?).....by the system. You see, I know that I will be looked after. I have no doubts about that - Salisbury is fantastic and I'm very lucky to be with them. I know that if there is anything badly wrong, they will contact me. I know that I will be cured of this beast - one way or the other - before very much longer. Yes - I'm being positive. But, can you see how easy it is to ......want.......need.......more support? And that, for me, is where this site comes in. To all of the long-term members of the site, I say a huge THANK YOU. Thank you for being there, thank you for listening to Newbies like me and thank you for sharing your own long Journey. To all the newly-joined members - no matter if it's about you, a relative, loved one, partner - this site will be a fantastic source of love, comfort and, above all, knowledge. (Although I did watch a video of a prostatectomy using the da Vinci robotic system - and I'm not sure I should have done....!!!!!!!!!) Thank you for reading this far..........more on me as soon as I know. Much love Steve