It's been over 6 months since dad died. Mum appears to be coping well, I know she struggles and is obviously still grieving, although she keeps her feelings mostly private. I thought I was strong and could cope, but I'm not coping now. I had a miscarriage just before Xmas and the experience was horrible. The timeframe in getting the shock of diagnosis to the end (less than 3 weeks) was scarily similar to when dad was diagnosed with cancer then died. I found out unexpectedly that I was pregnant but knew something was very wrong. Within 3 weeks the baby died and I had a D&C to remove it. The hospital also inadvertently found a cyst on my right ovaries, which now needs surgery to remove.
I thought I was strong in dealing with dad's illness, the funeral, the looking after mum afterwards.. The miscarriage threw me completely and I'm struggling to come to terms with everything. Work wanted to promote me before Xmas and I didn't want to go through that process on top of everything else. They knew what I was going through but made me feel ungrateful not to jump into the opoprtunity. With the promotion has come extra hours and extra pressure. To be honest I'm feeling depressed, getting short-tempered with people and not coping very well.
