My dad has terminal liver and lung cancer, i'm finding it really hard, we don't have the best of relationships and that's not going to change now. We are what we are and whilst I can accept that, I do feel shut out of things a bit.
He's in hospital at the moment with a blood infection, he's been in there a week and whilst the care he's getting is fantastic, they just can't seem to shift the blood infection.
I know this will be the first stay of many and the whole thing is taking it's toll on me. I'm sitting here at work trying not to cry, with a feeling of dread I can't seem to shift, and I know things aren't going to get any easier and I'm wondering how i'm going to get through all this.
