the suffering continues

Hi Beth,

I am a Patient and can agree 100% with how you feel - you are are a caring loving daughter who wants her Mums suffering to end, that can never be bad or horrible - honest.

As a patient I can say this so easy - the worst pain we can ever feel is seeing the pain we cause to our loved ones when we look into their eyes. Our pain will pass - you will be left with yours - all you can do is tell us you love us - be there for us and try to remember the better times. We need you to think of us with fondness, not pain - we will never cease to exist as long as we are in your heart.

I hope 2011 brings you and Your Mum peace and comfort - and a peaceful painfree  end for your Mum - its all we ever need or ask for.

John xx

hi beth my heart goes out to you .my mum has o.s. cancer and i am dreading her getting any worse .its perfectly normal to want your mum to be painfree xxbig hugs thinking of you love valxxx

Hi Beth,

Your not horrible or bad, You see your Mum in Pain and want it to stop, That is a very natural feeling for a loving Caring Daughter to feel. So just be your caring self and keep loving your Mum the way that you do. All the best my thoughts are with you and your Mum.

Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xx

Beth

I am in a similar situation to you only its my husband who has the cancer. I too wish sometomes that it would all end and i ccan get some "normaility" into my life.

I love David with all my heart but i dont want to see him suffer.  i dont want him to see my depression, ME/CFS and Fibromyalgia get any worse.  I am on long term sick leave because i am just unable to do anything becasue of the shaking in my hands 24/7 and my brain telling me one thing and my body doing something completely different.

I really feel for you hunny and you can always talk to anyone of us on here.

I will pm you my personal deatails if you wish to talk.

i sincerely apologise for any spelling errors this is part of my FMS.

love n huggles

Gwen xxx

Hi, I'm in a very similar position to you. My dad has just weeks left after being diagnosed with stage iv gbm (very aggressive brain cancer).

Christmas was so bittersweet - lovely to be with my children (and it was my youngest's 1st Xmas) but so sad that it would be dad's last. He used to love having a beer but can't do that now, he has no appetite and everything tastes metallic to him anyway and now he can't really walk. It breaks my heart. Selfishly I want him forever but on the flipside, I'm ready for him to go. He doesn't have quality of life anymore and he has often expressed his wish for it to all be over.

You're not a bad person, you just don't want to see your mum suffer. That's honourable. In the face of a terminal diagnosis of this awful disease, we can only hope that our loved ones have a dignified and peaceful passing. Dad said to me last week "can you imagine waking up ever day know that tomorrow you're going to feel worse still? And that you'll never get better?". I know there's no hope of a cure for him (his cancer is always fatal) and I hate watching him become a shadow of what he was.

Keep going.x