passed

i just dont know where i go from here? how did this all happen? and so quick!! i thought steve was invinsible nothing could take him away from us. how wrong was i, i feel sorry for the kids are they are only 12yrs old. i feel they were still gettng to know him, part of me knows he has gone but how do you ever imagine you won't hear or see them again? it's a horrible feeling waking up in the mornings knowing it's another day without him, and i have to get on with life and look after the  kids, think abut the future??? life is so cruel to us

Hi Blackbun40 - I am so sorry for all you are going through. You must not feel guilty your feelings are only natural - I lost my mum when i was 18 (13 yrs ago now) there was only my mum and me and my brother (3yrs)  at the time living at home - Everything stopped and everything changed - It is a hard road.... be kind to yourself

love silver

I don't think any of us thought we would be left on our own. You think life will go on as it always did. I agree it's hard to imagine that you will never see or hear him again. When I wake up I feel empty inside and the first thought in my head is 'Frank's dead'. Some days I look at his photo and  can't believe it and others I can accept that he's gone.I try not to think about the future, it's too painful. I just see the years stretching out before me. People who have gone through this tell me it does get better, and I hope it does, but it's hard to imagine at the moment. Maybe we can all help each other.

Sheila X