Palative care came out today. I was worried before hand whether I was going to have the house all clean, mum sorted, sister sorted, incase she thought I wasnt coping well!!!
Though I don't know why i was that irrational as I know that they won't judge me for the tiniest amount of mess, like a pile of washing or an unvacuumed floor but i seem to be irrational about a few things lately, or worry over the most silliest of things!
I managed to get a little sleep last night - well this morning. Though was awoken early and have been knackered ALL day!! Mum has been more ill than she has been today as well. The nurse kept asking me if I was OK and if I was coping. I said yes. But I could see her questioning it a little because of how tired I look and me trying to hold back tears a couple of times while she was there, She said she will pop over again next week to see if mums eating has improved.
We also got a delievery of a wedge for mum to be able to sit up easier in bed and a new memory form mattress. Which I am glad for. Although we haven't been able to to put it on her bed today because she has been that tired and ill that she hasnt wanted to get up all day - not even to the loo - which is worrying!
