Hi Everybody, I haven't been round for such a long time as I didn't really want to visit this site as it brought back sad memories.
Last friday was 5 months to the date that mum passed away and I must admit it has been tough. I still at times don't think she has gone, I think she is at home with dad.
Dad has just been for tea tonight, he seemed in good humour. I think the thing which helps in our family is the humour. We always try and see the funny side of things. We watched Harry Hills TV burp and You've been Framed, all very cheesy, but it made us laugh.
I am so proud of dad that he has been coping so well. He gets up everyday about 9.30, has his breakfast, then takes the dog out. He does the shopping, power washes the driveway, keeps himself busy in general.
I spend a few of my off days from work with him and go to museums, restaurants etc and have a good father and daughter relationship.
I have begun to not think of mum all the time when I am at work, it used to take over me and I would burst into tears on the shop floor. But now I'm mostly ok, and just shed my tears at home. I try and busy myself and then I don't ponder on things. Somedays are harder than others, and I still miss mum like mad.
I just wish I could move on from the moment mum was in the coffin, and the day she died, and think of happier times. I am sure they will come slowly, but surely. I know people say it takes time and the pain lessens.
I will always love my mum and couldn't have wished for a better mother to me and my brothers.
Dad has lost his soulmate, and feels sad, but he has gained a more loving daughter than ever before.
I will look after him mum, I am sure you are watching over us.
Belinda xx
