well here i am sat at my winow at work waiting for a new day to begin, i get into work at 05:45 and as a security officer i work really long hours, my treatment plan has not been formulated yet but i go for a PET Scan at Nottingham city hospital on tuesday. Sitting here gives you a lot of time to reflect on just what i have inside me. i am writing a journal of my thoughts, this helps me express all the anxieties and feelings i have about my condition. i know now fropm the site that i wont be alone, and neither will my partner of 4 years Tracy along with our 3 boys (they are hers really but they call me dad so they are ours)
Ican get very emotional when i think of everything i have been through in my short 49 years lost my first wife when i was 29 remarried and now divorced, lost my sister 5 years ago and lost my father just over a year ago. i will be strong as life has dealt me a really bad hand but now im with my Tracy and we live here in Lincoln we have had our share of bad luck in the past 4 years but we get over each hurdle as we come to them. i will be writing my blog every day i can either from work or at home or from anywhere i will be at the time laptops are usefull at times. i will learn more about this site and others as i browse through it
bye for now work calls Alan aka biggles13
