What else can one think about when you got this thingf eating you from inside, everyone thinks cancer is a slow lingering death, bt you have to grin n bear it laugh at it poke fun at it tell it to bollocks every now and then, dont be afraid to share your emotions
i nearly cracked up yesterday but i went and did sumat stupid instead i lit a bonfire and without checking a box i just threw it on the fire the boxe was thick cardboard out the garage in it was what i thought just old papers etc but oh no i had thrown a half gallon bottle of white spirit on to un beknown to me the bloody thing flared up like a flame thrower my gf called me a twat, i nearl cried i laughed so much and nearly set the decking on fire. i just got so fed up with waiting i just had enuf
funny now but it cud have caused a real catastrophy lol
i can control the other things i got wrong with me but this seems to be controlling me n i dont like it i aint a control freak or owt but this vile disease is getting me down just wanna chuck mesen int river , but jason my middle son said you'll catch yr death of cold. waittill summer n we'll do it together he gets the brunt of all my anger and hes a big lad and hugs me calling me a soft bugger n worse.
families have a lot to put up with and when i get well after my treatment im gonna treat em all to a big holiday, i migfht even buy em as fish n chip supper too
