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FormerMember

14 Jul 2010

Thank you all so very much for the lovely messages! i cannot explain how much you all are going to help me! thank you!!

I have been supporting my Dad as much as i can but some days i find it so hard not to break down and cry in front of him. I dont get upset in front of my Dad otherwise he may not think i am strong enough to support him... So i try my very best to be a strong as i can be.

Last night i went to see my mum is hospital and i just broke down into tears, i had to walk out of the room because it was soo hard seeing her looking disabled. She was crying saying she hates being washed and etc by the nurses and she doesnt want to carry on. It hurt like hell.. I am feeling at the moment for these past 2 years i have been so so strong like rock hard and sort of pretended this was not happening too me... Now i feel its hit me like a ton of rocks and i am finding it so very hard to keep myself strong... i know i can be and i know i will be because i am me, and i am like my mum. she brought me up to be the way i am and i will always forever be thankful to that... I just miss having a mum so very much now. And i wish some how i could do something but i cant :(

Its been alot harder for me recently as all my friends just stopped talking too me.Because i wasnt going out etc, they have been nasty too me and i dont know y! i just dont know why people cannot understand how hard this is for me.

All i can say to you guys is thank you so far! i really feel like i going to help me :)

xxxxxxx

FormerMember over 14 years ago

Dear Beckie,

You must feel as if you are in the middle of a nightmare and you are being very strong. However, you need support and to be able to let out all the anger,worry and fear you are experiencing. You know that you can do that on here and we will help you any way we can, but it would also be good to have a friend or relative to talk to. I am so sorry that your friends are not being supportive when you need them the most. Is there one friend that you could explain the situation to and who might be more understanding? It is hard for you to see your Mum like this but it is also hard for her

not to be able to attend to her own needs and she feels angry and frustrated. Just sit with her, give her a hug, hold her hand and she will know how much she means to you.

I am thinking of you and sending lots of love to you all,

Take care and stay in touch,

Love lizzie xx
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

Lizzie, your message was lovely., thank you!! :)

yes i have my boyfriend who is amazing, he is my rock i dont know how i would have coped without him! I really feel like everything just goes from worst too bad! its money worrys too.. as i am still at home with Mum and Dad, we cant get any support. Dad has not been to work for 2 weeks,he has been up hos with mum. I got made redundant from a good job with a good salary,so i could help more. Now i am temping and earning pennys! which is hard...

why do things always come at once. Honestly these past 2 years have been so so so hard. and i am so glad my mum brought me up the way she did otherwise i dont know how i would have coped.

i always sit with mum and talk to her about other things,than her illness to try and make her feel normal. Do you have any tips how i can try and cheer her up? And how i can help Dad more? i already clean the house from top to bottom,do the washing etc. Give him money(when i can) to put in his car and pay keep! I just wish there was more i can do! Any ideas?
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