Have tried to write this several times.
April - one minute warm sunshine, glad to leave winter behind then driving cold sleet, grey clouds and yuk.
One minute we were celebrating the results of my husband's scan half-way through chemo, then Bam. Take that, you silly humans! Thought you'd escaped, didn't you. You don't get away from me so easily. Can't even begin to explain what's happened over the past couple of weeks. I'll just say that the end of chemo scan wasn't great & husband (my hero, my hard-working gutsy Kiwi who has fought so much and has such warrior spirit) is starting 5 days of radiotherapy to zap some pestilential lymph nodes which have grown during the last 3 cycles of chemo.
Still trying to be hopeful, but in reality the choices are narrowing. If I'm totally honest and stare the enemy in the face, then what I know will happen one day is not going away.
So we are spending a few days trying to get our heads round things. I am having tearful conversations with the family and so on and so on..............
Will write something positive next time, but just had to get this out of the system....
Little Jen
