No - not the sort with ox and ass. Ali is stable six months after diagnosis of inoperable pancreatic cancer. She is enjoying very good quality of life - still doing her Arabic Dance and doing lunch with friends. The first month on steroids she was high as a kite but now has dose sorted so she is not high but not feeling sick either.
We haven't a clue how long we have left and clearly don't forget it but have managed to make a quiet life together in the face of it.
I am having pre-bereavement counselling at the hospice which is extremely helpful. Ali is happy with the Macmillan nurse who seems to enjoy visiting.
Sometimes I want to kick the cat or throw a total tantrum but we are still here six months on in the impossible situation and still telling each other the truth.
So good and hope it helps for anyone else who has refused chemo and decided to just go on until it stops.
