Not sure what is happening but the space time balance is shifting. It feels that it was Tuesday yesterday but how come they tell me today in Sunday? I think I remember Friday, or was it Thursday?, when I went to help the one they call Kim buy some new glasses. Me thinks it was a success, hope she still agrees with my fashion advice once they get delivered!
But how come time goes so quickly? I know there are 24 hours in each day and they tell me that every day is the same length but I think they do lie. Weekends seem to go by a double speed, 3 monthly scans appear in the diary every week it seems but then take a year to get you the results.
I'm only just six months past diagnosis and five months past surgery and my brain is playing tricks on me. At times if feels like I've had cancer for ever, so much has happened. A million hospital appointments, a hundred thousand needles stuck in the back of my hand and arm and about a trillion times of worry and "what if'?" thoughts.
But then again I have done so so much in the last six months. I look back at my blog on here and I can get some perspective. I've had loads of great days, great happenings from the simple to the magnificent. Met loads of new friends on here and found out that I have loads of wonderfully good friends here in real life.
Life is certainly not dull :-) At times I feel wonderfully alive and it's great when people say that the old me is back.
Reality does come crashing back at times but I don't fear cancer any more. I worry at times that I will have a tougher fight than I have at the moment but I'm certainly going to fight it all the way. I will enjoy the good things that life puts in front of me and savour every memory of every snatched minute of fun and pleasure from my future.
Today will be a good day and I am even being treated to someone else making the Sunday roast (thanks you James & Laura xxx)
To those who bring a smile to my face, an extra quick beat of my heart, a gentle hug and a kick up the backside when needed... I love and thank you all. :-)
Andrew xxx
