I've just had a quick look at my recent blogs and it seems that I have been thinking and chatting about feelings quite a bit and haven't explained much about what has actually been happening here at chateau A & T.
Christmas and New Year were fun although a bit too busy at times but then again I suppose it's meant to be! I must admit the playing of silly games was good medicine as was the singing competition we played on the Wii at a friends house just before New Year. Must had been faulty equipment as I came equal second which is way too good for someone who can't sing a note!
And then the snow arrived. Which is fun but is causing havoc locally and at present we have no supplies of milk or bread in the village. We will be eating dry weetabix and drinking milkless tea soon if it doesn't get better soon!
But T and I went on a great walk on Sunday, all part of our get fit plan for the new year. Lovely walk on frosty footpaths across the countryside and along the Ridgeway. We had planned a four mile walk and gave ourselves a leisurely 2 hours to do it in. With a smile I can tell you all that T is no good at judging distance on a map. 7.5 miles and three and a half hours later we got back home! Legs did ache and we did slump on the sofa for many hours after in the warm but it was fun. And we plan to do it again this coming sunday but a different route this time. I wonder where T will take me and how long we will be walking for? :-)
But the reality of cancer is still here. I chat to my Macmillan nurse yesterday as the appointment with my consultant hasn't come through yet. My CT scan is at the beginning of February so I really do need that appointment to hear the results! But yes I have also lost the paperwork about the scan and forgot to add it into the diary. Think it's the 2nd or the 4th...?
She promises to go off and sort and true to her word gets back to me before the end of the day. "Your scan is on the Monday 1st Feb" opps got that wrong! "And your follow up appointment I've made for the Friday. Now that that is sorted I now know when I have to worry! No good worrying to soon or even forgetting to worry....
But then I did something that scared me. Scared the both of us in fact.
I did the "to do" list for our wedding. Only about 12 weeks to go and the list is over 80 items long. Ooops and a big ooops! Think we need to delegate some of this stuff :-)
So we start to put names against some of the items but sadly too many of them still have our names against them. Can't really delegate someone else to learn of first dance. getting someone else to choose the rings is probably not a good idea too! Now going to sample the beer before we decide what ale barrels to order is something I just refuse to delegate!!! At least we have book the hall, booked the honeymoon and are ready to send the invites out when the snow clears... Good job I don't panic easily!
But I am nervous about the scan. I feel that all will be ok but you just can't get rid of those nerves. I am positive that I will live a long and fun filled happy life jumping in puddles and kicking leaves but I know that I will probably have times of very hard fights ahead of me but sod it, I'm going out to build a snowman...
Love n hugs to you all
Andrew xxx
