I read T's blog last night and it reminded me that this whole cancer thing is much more difficult/traumatic for the carer. I know how well I'm coping and I know when I'm having a bad day. Luckily I don't have bad days or moments to often. The worse for me is the continuous worry that no matter how strong I am, how strong Team A is we are fighting a cancer that plays by it's own rules.
If I was in T's position I think I would have cracked by now. All you can do as a carer is to support and to nag. Yep, the nagging is important and I love T for it. She's the main one in my corner looking out for me. She makes sure I rest, makes sure I eat properly, makes sure I enjoy life. Sometimes I just know that she has put her life, her wants and her needs on the back burner as we go though these very risky first few years with this cancer.
Babe, this is a partnership, don't forget that T is important to me and it's important that you remember to look after yourself and don't be afraid to leave me sitting on the sofa whilst you go out and have some normality without every day being a cancer day.
Right, got that off my chest :-)
Now where was I? Oh yes, the last time I blogged was about Friday night and, as explained, I had an early start to meet Mark over at the old offices so he could remove the structured cabling and touch up the paintwork. That done I raced back to meet T at the new studio where we had the first studio based family portrait session. Parents and there 30 something son. And he was a miserable sod! I'm allowed to say that as it was what his dad called him! He hated having his picture taken so this came out in very sullen looks. We did catch some of him smiling so his parents will have some great pics to send to his nan for xmas.
Shoot completed we went home and I curled up on the sofa for the afternoon and the evening. This bloody cold thing is getting to be a right pain...
Sunday was a fun day as there was another photoshoot but this time it was boudoir and featured T's cousin Kim. I wonder if she wants me to tell everyone on here? Too late now ;-)
Three hours later and numerous clothes changes later, including some close to naughty ones, and it was " a wrap" as they say in professional land. So we just said that we'd finished and we'd get her a slide show in about a week. A week? she complained, "I want them now!" No way Kim, post production is important even if just to remove spots and soften those skin tones.
The rest of the day was then me snuggles on the sofa then cooking the Sunday roast for early evening so that we could get our fix of Xfactor and IACGMOOH.
Lazy start on Monday morning as we were having a new tv aerial fitted so I spent the morning on the computer and making phone calls. Popped into the new office for an hour then back off home to spend the afternoon with my son Phil and better half Becca. A great chilled afternoon was had by all except for T who was still stuck all day at work. Now that reminds me about how I started this blog noting that this cancer thing is much harder for the carer...
Biggest hugs in the world to all you carers, especially you T, you make my life good.
Andrew xxxxxx
