Thoughts from the frontline - 67

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After my marathon blog yesterday about the past week I was glad that I spent Tuesday at home, resting.

But I do have a complaint about life and the dirty tricks it plays on you. Well me at least! :-)

Now I don't mind having diabetes and I have that under control with tablets, insulin injections, exercise and a healthy diet.

I, at the moment at least, don't mind the bladder cancer in that I am currently cancer free following the clear CT scan results about 10 days ago. I intend to have it under control and intend to fight a "oh my god it's come back" situation with exercise, a healthy diet and a positive attitude.

And I don't really have a problem with this "man flu" that I've got at the moment. I'm dosed up with lemsip and I'm sure it wont last forever.

However, the symptoms of the man flu have caused me a few moments of serious worry over the past few days. Waking up on Sunday after a late morning doze with the shakes was scary. I didn't feel ill, just had the shakes. Now I did have a drink the night before but not enough for a hangover or the DT's. So I did a little head panic and worried that my blood sugar levels had suddenly dropped for some reason. Now there was no logic there as I had had a wonderful bread and butter pudding for afters the night before. But I did need to do a blood test to check my levels before I got some peace of mind.

Well it didn't take to long before I knew it was a cold... sorry "man flu" and I started on the lemsips. But... ever since Sunday night until this morning I have been sweating like the proverbial every night and have woken up bathed in sweat.

Now that, as we all know is not pleasant, but for someone with a urostomy stoma it can lead to panic. Yep, you wake up thinking you've had a bag leak. And as the brain slowly wakes up you just feel the feeling and think "oh no, not again..."

Well that's my moan for the morning :-)

Now onto serious things. I've been using this website since soon after I was diagnosed in July this year and it has been a lifesaver to me. It has picked me up when I have been down. It has given me a hug and it has made me both laugh and cry with emotions.

I have made friends on here of some of the bestest people in the world, some I have met in reality and some just here in cyberspace.

This site is the people who use it, supported by the wonderful Macmillan people who sit in the background, taking stick from us when we want a moan but staying there with us.

This site is about getting and giving support to cancer sufferers and carers no matter who they are, rich or poor, brave or scared, old or young, terminal or "currently clear".

I use the blogs on here mostly so that I can write down my experiences and emotions, it is what helps me keep sane (well sane enough to function in polite society) but do go into the Bladder Cancer forum to check if I can help anyone in there.

I have also, but rarely, used the cancer information part of the website to check some facts but I don't really use anything else on here. So my question is...

What am I missing out on? What else could I do to help others on here?

Any suggestions welcomed and I'm sure it will help many people more than just me.

Love you all

Andrew xxx

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