Thoughts from the frontline - 31

Tuesday morning and I awake to find myself on the sofa again. Oh yes, the leaky bag incident the night before. But I seemed to have survived the night without another accident. Now that was GOOD news. :-) But I am a determined sod at times so decided that I wouldn't rush to change my bag this morning. I was using a different bag type and despite the problems over the last couple of days I was sure it wasn't the fault of the bag but more the operator as in me! I had already decided that it would be a day of rest after the busy weekend so I settled down to a day of doing nothing with the aim of getting through to the end of the day without further leakage problems. And the day flew by. Nothing like having a plan, a battle to be won to make the day fly by. It was "Save the Bag Day". And you win at the saving the bag by ignoring it as much as you can but being careful not to do those things that you know would put strain on the seal. So it was a day of popping to the loo to empty it every hour. Didn't want it to fill too much and find a weak spot. And anyway, the exercise of going up and down stairs twenty times was doing me good!! And I lasted right up until about ten o'clock before I decided that it would be a good idea to install a new bag before going off to bed. But before that I would spend an hour on the internet browsing the different sites to see all the different bags and accessories that you can use. My god, so much choice! Me thinks that I will need to try out some of them over the next few months. Well, the change over to the new bag went smoothly and I climbed into bed with an extra towel underneath me just in case... Well, I did wake up early again but just because of some residual pain rather than any leak. Waking up in the middle of the night is never fun but this time I was smiling! The bag was fully functional and watertight = smiley face :-) And it wasn't long before I'd fallen asleep again. I'm sure I will get to sleep straight through again soon but it's not that important as I can always catch up with a little snooze during the day. A minor inconvenience as they say. But today (Wednesday) was going to be an active day and not long after breakfast I took myself off for a walk round the village. I bit chilly so a warm jumper was needed on top of my t shirt but I was in the mood for a slightly quicker walk than before. And this time without a walking stick. And it was good. The best things being that I was not exhausted when I got home, just refreshed from having the wind in my face and the sun (well daylight) on my skin. And I felt alive. After the activity of the morning I settled down to a lazy afternoon and watched a couple of films including Shreck 3 which was fab, I just love the way it takes the rise out of Disney :-). It is strange though, I do get a bit bored with this "doing nothing" lifestyle that I have to live but it is about all I can really do. There is a multitude of things that I should do including many things for work but I just can't do them. It's as if my mind has said "nope, you can't do that, it's not important and you need to chill as well as rest. Work has to be put on the back burner for now. It's not important. I'm sure that I will soon start to want to get my brain active again soon but not yet. Maybe next week, certainly not before the results I'm due on Friday... Another evening of doing not a lot and it was suddenly late on Wednesday evening and T had arrived back from her evening out at Stitch n Bitch. Another day over. Another day of success in minor but oh so important little steps. Less than 3 weeks post operation and I know that I am making progress. I wonder how long before I can jump in those deep puddles? Andrew xxx