WWIII broke out in my house this weekend, I had enough of struggling on my own with two more than capable kids in the house.
14 and 12 , not little ones any more but you would think they were still toddlers who were incapable of lifting a finger to help, I never even get offered a glass of water, no matter how low or ill I get.
And yes I know it's a factor of real life than continues with or with out cancer. But unfortunately it all blew up in our faces this weekend and I had a total flip out at them both!
I am sure I said some things I shouldt have said and I know they did, coz I got a couple of F**k OFF and dies...
My 14 year old seems to be in total denial of my cancer and is ignoring me , investing all her time and energy in a totally dysfunctional family down the road, helping this other woman with her kids, house work and mental health problems, but won't even make a cup of tea for me. Telling the world and anyone who will listen how worried she is about me etc and doing nothing here but abuse her little sister and ignore me!
The younger one who is 12, just seems to want constant praise for washing up maybe once a week and is always shouting at me and demanding my attention for one small thing or another. Every thing in her life is a drama and I am worn out by them....
I totally understand they are struggling with this whole situation and I am constantly trying to understand how they must be feeling and trying to come to terms with this whole bloody cancer crap, but what about ME? I feel selfish for even feeling resentful towards them, it feels like they just don't care at all about how I feel or how they make me feel.
Maybe I expect to much from them, but is a cup of tea and pushing the hoover around to much with out asking? Or a kind word and cuddle, I miss cuddles so much.
