Well when my St Vincents nurse usually calls its just to check up on my pain and pain management and see how chemo is progressing. This time however a magic form came out her bag and made my day! Surprises catch me off guard and i get a bit anxious when things dont stick to the usual routine, but this was a good one!!
*Isis, i have a proposal for you - 000ft, stomach sinks, am i in trouble?! Whats going on?!*
She proceeds to tell me there is something called the Willow Foundation who organise special days out for younger people who are seriously ill. The day can be anything i want it to be as long as i have someone who knows my illness/needs coming along with as my companion.
*ears prick up - whats this?! I get cancer and get given lots of nice things, too good to be true!*
So she gave me a couple of weeks to think over what my dream day would be and left me with a list of previous requests and stuff to give me ideas. So i had a wee peek on their website too and read the wonderful stuff people got to do and it made me feel all warm and fuzzy.
I had plans to go to London in Sept when chemo was over with and go spend a week with my best mate and her parents and just relax, however sneaky little stealth ninja (yet to be named) DVT snuck in and spoiled those plans!!! They arent good with needles and neither am i, so its being postponed til after injections are finished, and who knows, might be sown back together again in Feb and i can have a bag free holiday too!!!
Oh god thats something im looking forward to like you wouldnt believe - the pregnant look plus a big bag plastered to my stomach and having to deal with bags of poo tends to put a bit of a dampener on things.
*crosses fingers all sown up for week to that London!*
So everything i had to look forward to seemed to be getting postponed with all the new random health problems and complications coming up post allergic reaction and scan, but now i see a little tiny ray of hope that i might get an amazing break away from here and Thundercat is a willing companion and very good at the pointy stick duty - What would i do without Thundercat and Big Sis for such things!!!
Anytime i think of pointy stick stabby joe, i go into a mild panic attack - MASSIVE respect to people who can self inject those horrible stingy sore injections, you guys deserve more than ten points, a gold star and straight to the top of the class! :D
*Sooooo........decision decision time!!! What do i ask for?!*
Well, ive had a proper dream of this one scenario in my head since i was 15 (bloody hell thats almost 15 yrs ive been wanting to do this, heres hoping they say yes, as im more than a little excited about it!!) And ive put off seeing this show as i always needed it to be in this one dream scenario, otherwise it just wouldnt live up to all i had hoped for....
Ive ALWAYS (well almost 15yrs counts as always) wanted to go to London for the weekend and go to see Phantom of the Opera with a date and go get a classy dinner and head out in a little black dress all poshed up and go see my favourite musical. Until now, ive never found a guy who would appreciate such things, my last bf was a hip hop lover and scoffed at all things musical and did not understand the appeal (and had a wallet that was too tight i had to pay for my own dinner most nights so doubt a trip to London was ever a consideration!!LOL) Now however, i have the wonderfully talented, creative, actor type, musical appreciating Thundercat in my life (who knows all the songs and sings to me - give me shivers hes that good!!!). Ever since he found out about my love of Phantom hes wanted to take me to see it. They are touring and coming to Edinburgh soon but he didnt want to go ahead and buy tickets without asking me as he knows i am so desperate to see it in the West End and have the whole experience and mentioned this to me the day before my nurse turned up with said proposal!! So instead of mulling over the need to see this and the fact it wasnt in the West End, i get to fill in this magic form and maybe have the most epic dream day of my life the way id always imagined it - possibly even rivals meeting Slash!!!
So, heres hoping they grant my my application wish and i get a cheeky wee weekend or overnight stay and have a classy little romantic weekend away and i hope hope hope its all ive ever wanted.
Who knew being ill would bring such wonderful things into my life, as well as all you wonderful people ive met through macland! Life is full of wonderful surprises at times aint it?
Anyhew, if you wanna have a peek at what the Willow Foundation do, the link to their website is here - http://www.willowfoundation.org.uk/Home
Isis xxx
