I am managing to work slightly longer hours this week, I feel an overwhelming tiredness around 11am but find a strong cup of coffee helps with this. I find life is following a sort of pattern looking a bit too normal for my liking and I'm terrified of just feeling like I am only just coping all the time. I like to talk about my husband, he was only my husband for 23 days but we were together for years never really factoring in the time to get married, we both much preferred the holiday honeymoon bit :). We married in secret and it did come as a shock to family and friends after Doug passed away, he would have loved to have seen the look on their faces as he was always one for a shock announcement anyway. One of the two witnesses at our wedding inadvertently videoed me saying my vows (she pressed the wrong button) and for that I am truly grateful as I can see Doug move and smile as I began to cry. This 60 second video is priceless.
