Today I cannot believe how I have got to day 31, feels like yesterday albeit in a slightly altered way. I miss the coming home to a cup of tea ready for me and someone who wants to hear all about my day not just listening because they feel like they have to. I hate waking up alone without Doug there to put his arms round me and say good morning....I dislike explaining why I look flipping miserable most of the time but most of all I just miss him badly. I know I'm not the only one in this situation but somedays it feels like I am.
