This blog seems to be helping me, writing down exactly how I feel seems to let me lift a little once it's out of my head! Yesterday was 7 weeks since we got married on valentines day and tomorrow will be 4 weeks since my darling husband passed away, isn't it funny how time is measured in weeks, not so long ago it was days, before that hours... I look at photos of us and our family every day and I find this makes me smile as I remember the day the pic was taken, invariably I end up in tears. Fridays are really hard for me as it was our day/night, we always went out no matter what on a Friday night and we were often teased by friends for still "dating" 12 years later, how I miss this now. Tonight i am meeting friends for a drink as its impossible for me to stay in and friends know this...however it's not really much compensation at the moment. Time cannot go backwards and I wouldn't want him to go through the pain again but sometimes, just for a second I wish it could....
