Felt too awful to post a day 24! Today I went to work for a few hours and whilst I had a major mess to sort out as I have been off for 6 weeks, I felt a little better for going. Cried my eyes out before I went this morning as I cannot get my head round "normal" and work felt too normal for me for now. Tomorrow I will try again and see how that goes.
Problem I have at the moment is I don't want to talk to anyone, i feel drained and unstable most of the time and cannot be bothered to explain this to people who keep telling me "chin up". Being here writing it down really helps me as my thought process seems to get straightened out, I am a logical person and I know that my feelings are completely normal but will I always feel like this? I am starting to get angry as well, angry with old people because they are old and my man never had the chance, angry with myself for not coping, even angry with him for leaving me on my own, if this carries on I shall definitely need anger management classes....
