6 days away from the first anniversary of the worst day of my life. Cant help but think the 'this time last year' thoughts and whilst there is no way I would want him to go through the pain and despair again, I do so wish I could see/hear/touch/smell and hold him just one more time.
I think I have come a long way in a year. I am realising that bad days are the normal but they are interspersed with more brighter days now. It has taken me nearly a year to realise that I need to take time out for me now, so I have handed in my notice at one job and the other job is still reduced to 3 days a week which is enough for now.
With the increased time I will have I think I am going to have to find something to focus on. I have already joined the gym and I think I will increase my time here and find a hobby....don't know what because I am good at nothing.
I am hoping that this year will bring the return of some of my memory - sometimes its embarrassing the things I forget, I write everything down so I don't miss events but I cannot remember which person has told me what!
I continue to read the posts on this site on a daily basis but do not reply anymore as there is nothing I can say to ease anyones pain and suffering....I realise that a year later too but I do wish all of you that take the time to read this, the best result you can possibly have x
