(28 Nov, 2012)
36 hours ago … my morphine usage was spiralling… but let me fill you in how its used…. you have a base layer of long release drug that you take every twelve hours. It should keep you at a constant lever of relief…
Above and beyond that is a syrup taken by mouth as neccessary… usually 1-2 spoons every 4 to six hours.
You keep checking on the intake of the quick…
(24 Nov, 2012)
s’been a wobbly week painwise… being sent home with paracetamol from the hospital… having it upped by a GP to low strength co-codamol…. followed the next day by my usual GP upping it to high strength co-codamol.
By Thursday I hadn’t had much sleep… I ended up spending much of Thursday night (having realised I’d already gone over my days tablet limit) in pain and lying…
(22 Nov, 2012)
…is a diffuse large B cell lymphoma… its a non Hodgkins thing and is very aggressive (I knew enough to burst into tears with relief not fear when the consultant said it’s aggressive).
I start chemotherapy on Wednesday… no doubt more on that later.
Time to fill the boy in a bit now things are starting to move and be definite… so far he knows I’m poorly… that I have a lump…
(21 Nov, 2012)
I answered the phone to a company based locally that rings us regulary…. oh and they sell windows. They ring us up even though they know we don’t want or need new windows…. they’ve been told… politely and not so politely. If i wanted to buy windows after 9 years of them ringing they would be the last place I would go to fill my glazing needs.
Today they rang…
(20 Nov, 2012)
…. so… too distraught to ask for the siren on the ambulance (dear Jim’ll Fix I’d like to ride in the back of an ambulance with the sirens on….preferably to a hospital you’ve no dodgy links to).
The nice ambulance men decided gas and air wasn’t suitable as I’d been vomiting and suggested morphine…. as i never knowingly say no to morphine in a legally acceptable…
