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FormerMember

1 Nov 2010

Thank you everyone for your kind words and support. I know that I will probably not find anyone my own age but there is lots of people who have been through the same experiences. I guess we always just felt so isolated by our age through all of my husbands treatments because most people just used to stare when we walked in, even the doctors and nurses were taken aback when they first met us.

I just cant stand how angery I feel at the world right now, is this normal did you all feel like this to begin with? Anger is not something either of us ever really felt at the time but now its all over thats all I feel and numb. I havent even been able to cry properly yet not even at the funeral it was awful Im sure everyone thought I was so heartless! I suppose it will just take time for everything to sink in.

FormerMember over 14 years ago

Anger is a normal part of greiving, how much and to whom you direct that anger is different for all. Many people say the go numb and can't cry. I have numb moments but crying is something I can't stop doing right from the start. Having a rough few days myself at the moment so the tears are more then they had become and it is nothing like me before, I was never a weepy woman. There are many unexpected emotions in grief, guilt is one of the biggest I have and can not shake along with the overwelming sadness and loss of future. This experiance has changed us forever and we are just starting to discover the new us that will emerge from the ashes. Even though we may not want to.

I am not that much older than you and hope I can relate, send me a private message or keep posting and I'll lookout for you.

T
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

Hi Lauren,

My thoughts are still with you. Heartless you are definitly not. It will all come out when you see, something hear something, then it will all come flooding back. Some loving caring moment that you will remember. Your grieving will start.

Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xx
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