It's been a long time since my last visit ! Life goes on for all of us, and here is just a taste of ours.
Dave is doing OK. He is still under the close eye of his oncology team and for now, is clear of any nasty bits. Since being at his sisters, surrounded by open spaces, horses, badgers, foxes and dogs, his depression has definately improved...Yeah!!
The down side: he has only been home twice, for 1 night in the last 3 1/2 months.
As you may recall, he went there just before our BIL passed away on 23rd July. I went down to them the following day, stayed for 4weeks then returned home, alone. I visit them every weekend but feel I'm not needed, and sometimes, not wanted. It's getting exspensive too. Thats how it's been ever since.
I'm lonely, unhappy and very tearful.
We have had long talks, I've screamed and cried, even spat the dummy more than once. Did it help? Only briefly.
He now feels torn between his sister and me. He insists he loves me still, but can't leave her on her own in the middle of nowhere. He hates being in our house and this area, as it holds so many sad memories for him.
I understand that. I'm torn between feeling used by them or is it because I'm home alone, missing him madly.
So.....what's your plan of action Shaz?
I have found a two-up, two-down cottage, only 15mins drive from his sisters place. There aren't any houses surrounding us, only fields. Across the field at the back is a lake where he can become a gnome for the day/night and fish. Nice walks with the dog, a pub just up the road in the village and a corner shop. Its small but cosy. No log fire as yet, sure that could be arranged though. He likes it and wants to move in yesterday lol.
I love this damn awkward man and I'm not ready to give up fighting to keep him.
So, wish me well cos I'm flat out sorting and packing.........on my own!!! The up side is, I can get rid of so much crap lol.
Love to you all, keep up the good fight peeps
Shaz (((((((((((XXXXXXX))))))))))
