What does anyone think: can we contact people who are "on the other side"?
Is it worth trying to see if someone you have lost through cancer has any messages or guidance for you that they would like to give you - or at the very least that you can say hello and know you are heard?
I have been thinking about this more and more.
Sometimes I think I can feel Mum around me - that she has definitely not gone away and that she is trying to let me know stuff.
Just one example: I was in the supermarket on Saturday and feeling particularly sad because we went in there together so much. As I was walking out with my groceries, the bookshelves caught my eye suddenly. And there was a book about colour analysis, and how to look good in your particular colours that suit you according to your skin type and how to dress for your body shape and how to wear makeup according to your unique colouring. It was called "Colour Me Beautiful". It was reduced in the sale and it was the sort of thing Mum would have drawn my attention to and wanted me to take note of. She loved people making the most of themselves and she would cheer me up with suggestions like this when I was feeling down. I was also into colour analysis for a while and used to hold colour analysis parties at home, to which I invited a lot of her friends. It was something we were both interested in. It was as if she was telling me not to feel down but to maybe spruce myself up a bit and get some ideas by reading this book. Which is exactly the sort of thing she would say when she was still around, to help me have confidence in myself. We used to watch Gok Wan's fashion programmes together.
I do wonder if Mum was trying to talk to me that day. I would like to find out more but It often seems to involve large amounts of money and I'm not really interested in that.
I went recenty to a pub psychic evening and instead of the group talk/meeting/experience I had been expecting, it was a group of mediums sat in a back room holding private one-to-one seances for £39.95 a go. It was a bit of a shock and rammed it home what a business it really is. I would have been happy to pay £5 or even £10 for a general talk and discussion with maybe a demonstration on a willing member of the audience. But it didn't turn out to be that kind of evening. Maybe there is room for someone to organise one. But that price really did seem steep. I met a man sitting in the corner who I sort of confided in, perhaps I shouldn't have done but I found myself talking about how my mum and dog had died within months of each other, both of cancer. We had quite a good chat. He was very keen to let me know that he thought I could stay in touch with Mum using my own mind and emotions, rather than relying on someone else to get in touch. In psychic terms, a sceptic. He told me to spend the money on something nice for myself rather than give it to someone else to make contact, and that he felt that my mum sounded like the sort of person who would prefer that I do that. And that felt ok. When the organiser lady came back to see if I wanted a reading, I said I'd pass. And that felt right. It was a very nice pub and I stayed a couple of hours just relaxing. I didn't see anyone else going up for a reading while I was there but maybe they did later. After taking some Dutch courage perhaps?
I've had lots of dreams about Mum since she died and she is mostly laughing and happy. I should think she is in a better place. But beyond that, I don't know, and I would like to. Maybe one day it will come to me .....
