Just like I knew I would, I regret posting that blog post yesterday. Reading it back I sound like such a petulant little child - I apologise to anyone who had the misfortune of stumbling across that and having to read it. I promise I am not normally like that! I swear!
It all came from the fact that alot of bad things have happened to me and my family in the past two months and it's making everything else, all the silly little things seem like big huge problems when they aren't. Some days I feel like I'm 13 again. So that's when we end up with situations like yesterday where one thing hasn't gone my way and it's like the whole world is ganging up on me and I just become a huge, melodramatic bubble of hormones, snot and tears.
My boyfriend is going through a hard time at the moment too, so despite my gushing ramblings about how wonderful things are with him at the moment - the reality is that they aren't really. Things are pretty hard right now for us both and we're trying to support each other as best as we can. We seem to be arguing alot recently and it's not easy. We'll be fine, we always are :)
My mum has her consultation on the 30th so I'm gonna go down and see her after that and see how she is. Reports from my sister suggest things aren't great at all at home right now and she's asked if she can stay with us again this weekend. My mum can be quite difficult when her head is in a certain place, I remember from the first time she was ill and she can be very, very difficult to live with. Last time she was ill I don't think she really spoke to me for about a year. It wasn't easy and if I can take that burden from my sister, I will.
Yesterday's blog post got me thinking though, about how I handle situations, especially at the moment. It's like I have reverted back to my teenage years where logical thinking just doesn't occur to me. I'm getting tired of myself and my constant moaning.
Today is an ok day minus the embarrassment of that blog. I've been doing pretty well and I've been communicating with people just fine. My boyfriend and I just finished a phonecall without arguing either which is a bonus. Small mercies eh?
