Since my last post, I’ve been working hard to find some balance in my life. A life that has changed drastically since my Chronic Myeloid Leukemia (CML) diagnosis. It’s been a challenging few weeks, but I’m slowly learning how to adjust to this new normal.
One of the biggest lessons I’ve learned is the importance of flexibility. Before my diagnosis, I was someone who thrived on structure and routine. I liked knowing what was coming next, and I took pride in my ability to manage my time effectively. But CML has forced me to rethink my approach to life. There are days when the side effects from my treatment, like fatigue and muscle pain, make it impossible to stick to a rigid schedule.
At first, this lack of control was frustrating. I felt like I was failing if I couldn’t complete everything on my to-do list. But I’m beginning to realize that flexibility doesn’t mean giving up; it means adapting. It means listening to my body and knowing when to push forward and when to take a step back.
In light of flexibility, I realized keeping up with my MSc Management program, I needed more time to focus on my health and recovery. The side effects from my treatment, combined with the stress of managing my coursework, have made it nearly impossible to maintain the pace I was used to before my diagnosis.
So, after much consideration, I reached out to my university to request a 6-month extension. This decision wasn’t easy. As someone who’s always prided myself on being able to handle my responsibilities, admitting that I needed more time felt like a setback. But I knew that my health had to be the priority, and that meant giving myself the space to recover both physically and mentally. Now, I’m in a bit of a waiting game, hoping to hear back from the university with a positive response. The uncertainty is difficult, but I’m trying to stay optimistic. I know that taking this break would be the best thing for me right now, allowing me to manage my treatment without the constant pressure of assessment deadlines hanging over my head.
What makes this situation even more challenging is the fact that I’m an international student here in the UK. All my family is back home in Nigeria, which means I’ve had to navigate this entire journey without the comfort and support of having loved ones nearby. It’s been one of the hardest parts of this experience being so far from home, from the people who know me best, and having to manage everything on my own.
Simple things like cooking, cleaning, and running errands have become more exhausting than ever, especially on days when the side effects of my medication hit hard. There are times when I wish I could just lean on my family, but instead, I’ve had to learn to be resourceful and self-reliant in ways I never imagined.
I’m trying to find strength in my independence. Being far from home has forced me to grow in ways I never anticipated. I’ve learned to advocate for myself, to ask for help when I need it, and to take control of my own health and well-being. It’s not easy, but I’m proud of the resilience I’m developing.
As I wait for a response from my university, I’m doing my best to stay focused on my recovery and to find moments of peace amidst the uncertainty. I’m hopeful that the extension will be granted and that I’ll have the time I need to get back on my feet.
Thank you for being part of this journey with me. Your support means the world, especially during times like these when the road ahead feels unclear. I’ll keep you updated on any news from the university, and in the meantime, I’ll continue to share my experiences and insights as I navigate this new chapter of my life.
Take care, and until next time, remember that even in the face of challenges, we have the strength to keep moving forward.
Warm regards,
Temi
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