The last few days have been hard in more ways than one.
My frustration still rages about my hubby's misdiagnosis over a year ago, his unnecessary treatment which has now affected his body. I kept saying I was convinced it was not Prostate with bone Mets and I was right!.
He is now on treatment, for Mutiple Myeloma, he has not been out of bed for a whole day, not eating much, not ringing the Doctor about his current symptoms. His abdomen is swollen but every other part is skin & bone.
He still has the mental capacity to do things but is quite happy not making calls, sorting things out.
I feel overwhelmed, need a holiday, want to scream & shout.
I'm still working but everyday think I should give up but will go mad if I don't have that escape.
I feel like I'm trapped in a house I don't want to be but can't do anything whilst he is on treatment. There is nothing to keep me in this area.
I know this is all about what I want but I need to think about myself because no one else is.
