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I'm in a really horrific miserable mood today, and I feel so guilty about it. I don't feel like I have the right to feel like this when it's my dad that is ill and I'm perfectly healthy, everyone else in the family seems to be holding it together just fine. Trying to put on a happy face and keep positive around him so he doesn't get upset but in reality just want to lock myself in a room and break down. I feel like I…

Came back from uni almost a month ago to visit the family and no one was home. Turned out my dad had been taken in for tests as they believed he'd had a stroke but once they did a ct scan they found out that actually he had a tumour on his brain. We all tried to remain positive,  he's young (only 49!!) and generally a very healthy man, but from then on everytime we went back to the hospital the news got worse.