3rd dance with germ cell cancer

Of feeling normal,i have now managed to eek out enough stem cells for two transplants So on thursday i enter hospital for a long stretch My afp is on the way down,so my tumours are responding to chemo. So come august they all be dead,or i will Such fun

Things don't seem to be going my way, Back in july 2012 when i was diagnosed with germ cell cancer a nice big 19*10 cm mass in my abdomen a couple oy chest lymph nodes and lung metastsis,was only a tad concerned as i was told it was treatable and required 16 weeks of chemo, 16 weeks, but i got tickets for the olympics, oh well i suppose 16 weeks isnt that long, could do with a rest. Well 16 weeks came and went woohoo…

Of feeling normal,Royal Marsden excelled themselves again with their wisdom that I have a star track transporter in my house. After following there instructions I rang at lunch time to see if there was a bed available for tomorrow, I was told no but ring tomorrow at 9am,not a problem I though I explained I live an hour away,but will need to organise a lift, 7.50pm They rang asking me to be there at 10am,great ..…

This always gets me people say don't worry about the future you can't predict it, Well actually with cancer treatment I feel like a mystic meg but always right. People say you can't be sure what your doing next weekend let alone a years time, Um yes I can, I be in a hospital bed having poison pumped though me. People say you can't predict the side effects, Um bet I can ,pretty certain my hair will fall out again, Can…

We'll this is going to be a long two weeks, I was supposed to have a curable cancer,but here I am facing along two weeks of what ifs Have a kidney test on Wednesday what if my remaining kidney can't handle high dose chemo Then have four days of chemo to prime my bone marrow then 7 days of injections to boost stem cell production What if they can't harvest enough,we'll it failed last time Then the big if what if hdc…