Oh well

After getting all prepared to go yesterday, no bed, so one extra day of freedom,but now they have a bed, and on a friday as well, not sure why but friday always seems the hardest to go in on, Or is it that you have a glimpse of maybe going in on a monday, Oh well last time all seemed so easy last year, just a small spot of cancer, but even that didnt stop a reoccurrence Now it seems impossible , as just cant see it happening as the markers come down so slowly at the end, I just see a repeat of twelve months ago where they so nearly seemed to normalise, but i reality i was no where close, Maybe just maybe, the dam things will die, otherwise im in big trouble as they already said its the end of treatment for me. Well least on a friday i wont know about my markers til i have had all the chemo.