I thought i update this blog, in september 2012 a month after intense. Chemo i found out what what the tumour marker afp meant, my afp at diagnosed was 415000, to me it was just a number, meant absolutely nothing, ,they told me the number i just shugged, 4 weeks later professor Howich explained to me it was decreasing a half every week and was only about 90000 woohoo i thought thats good, treatment working as expected,
It was only in the last week i found out that it was supposed to be under 10 in men , whoopsie mine was 1000
When i had my first reoccurrence i was informed, afp 1200, gottca know what that means,
Every blood test i wanted to know the number, every three weeks my first question was whats my tumor marker down to.? It never made the golden number of halving every week and stressed me out, it did get to 14, then started to rise,
This time i said i dont want to know the number, just the trend down is good up is bad, under ten the magic number,
For 7 weeks i not asked, dont want to know, told my consultants i dont want to know
Friday i had my all important consultation to determine whether my treatment would continue,
A junior consultant walked in, before i could say hello, he told me my afp marker, i was gutted as it had not fallen as much as i hoped but i just wanted to be ignorant of the fact,
My treatment continues, but the genie is out the bottle, i know my tumours are still active, its not working as they had hoped
I spend three week in hospital going though the chemo, but in my heart i know its in vain
