The last couple of days have mentally been bad, i just cant shake off the fact that things are not going to be ok, yes i must admit this time last year i thought that i would either be in an NED status or dead, not still stuck in cancer world, with limeted options, i thought on jan 5th that i was going to be told there was nothing more they could do, but instead found out the tumors could be surgically removed i was amazed i thought it be an end to this cancer game, but now i must wait till the end of March to find out if surgery is an answer, will more tumors appear because of the one in my lung or does germ cell cancer just recur where its been before..
but at the mo i feel that im terminal i cant shake the feeling, how have i failed chemo? What did i do,
