I was given a piece of advice when I lost you - dont make any major decisions or changes for at least a year. Grief was so painful I ignored that advice....
Anyway it's not neat in a book where there are chapters... it's not the beggining of a story and the end of a story. Its forever threaded through my life like silver thread. Its changed me forever. I'll never be the me I was before. Life will not be neat little chapters and I wont be over it and it wont fade and it wont be ok with me - I'll just live with it cos I've no choice.
I love you. Always have always will x And I live with you not being here daily, weekly, monthly, annually always. I'm gutted it had to be you x Always will be. Am trying my best Lion x I'm trying my best x aim to be happy again that's what you said. And I will try and I am trying but I'll never forget you or us x
Love is forever and so is loss.
Karen x
