Struggling today

Hi Chelmarsh I hope you are ok, I had my results today, I didn’t sleep last night and was a nightmare this morning, got there early as just needed to be there, my cancer hasn’t spread and it is contained in the bowel, he said they are looking to operate in the next 2 weeks as I have symptoms of my Bowel blocking, I’m having key hole surgery and he said I will be in between 3-5 days, they will then check my lymph nodes once it’s out and if it has spread then I will need mop up chemo 

I have everything crossed for you for tomorrow please keep me posted as I will be thinking if you xx 

Mollyf really hope it’s positive news for you, I’ll be thinking of you xx 

Hi Seashelly, so glad you have had positive news that it hasn't spread. Good to hear also that your treatment will be soon and that everything seems to be covered . I am trying bit stay positive but getting really anxious now. Thank you for your thoughts and good wishes, let me know how you get on. X

It’s so hard I know as I was the same, I kept myself busy, had a bath washed my hair just to pass the time this morning, try and keep yourself busy, I wrote loads of questions out this morning out as well just so I was prepared, What time is your appointment tomorrow? Xx 

My appointment is 3.45 but got our COVID booster jabs tomorrow late morning so that will keep us busy for a while. I've also got an appointment booked for Monday morning at 9 with a specialist nurse , not sure whether that's normal so that's giving me some concern too. I'm told it's to go through everything again and to give me the opportunity to ask any questions we may have thought of. Perhaps I'm reading too much into it but can't seem to do anything else today. Xx 

Hi that’s good you will be busy in the morning, we had a meeting straight after with a nurse she was with us for about 45 mins going through everything again with us asking if we had more questions, so maybe yours is just another day and we had ours on the same day, she spent a lot of time explaining everything to us again and we asked lots of questions, one question I had was what could I do to help myself and she said get high protein shakes from now until the op as that will help me with the op/recovery, so I’ve ordered those. I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow, please keep me updated xx 

Thankyou that's made me feel a little easier. I'll let you know how I get on tomorrow Xxx take care 

Hi not on my way out yet !! Going to have 6 lots of Targeted Therapy never been so relived it should hopefully get rid of the mets in my lung I start on the 17th November and I really don’t care how horrible it makes me ill take it!! Xxx

So glad you have a plan set up and ready to go and such a relief for you.. Just me now tomorrow, trying hard to stay calm and focused but doubt I will sleep much tonight, great news for you xxx

I was thinking of you earlier am sure you will be ok as I was today I think this treatment is very good but I will feel ill but we will take it won’t we … once you know your plan 2m I promise you will feel so relieved like I do it’s very weird thing to say but true … I even asked for a port line for chemo which means can’t be seen and I can still swim I became very confident in there compared to the quivering mess I’ve been all week !! Do have a stinker of a headache though … I really hope you sleep tonight .. do you have someone with you 2m always helps for a second pair of ears … xxxx

Thank you so much for your thoughts and support, just need to get through tomorrow and like you said will take whatever is on offer for a good outcome, just praying that I am as lucky as you and have some positive news as really fearing the worst tonight. I have wonderful support in my hubby who was there for my diagnosis and will he with me tomorrow, I just thank God I have him as he is truly the best and so strong, he won't let me falter and if I do he's there to pick me up. Xx Just praying for a good outcome tomorrow x