Hi everyone,
Im new on the site and new to online chat or anything like this or social media. Its taken me a while to get round to asking for help as i struggle with doing so, so please bear with me.
I was diagnosed with bowel cancer in Nov 21 and under went emergency surgery in December, a right hemicolectomy, lymph nodes removed and peritoneal lining/ stomach lining scraped. This was followed with sepsis and then pneumonia. Once ide escaped hospital and started recovery from surgery i started chemo. I had 6 cycles and was clear from cancer.
In April this year my bloods werent right and after a PET scan it showed the cancer had returned in my Peritoneal Lining. I was told its incurable and after asking was informed that a high percentage of patients with the same cancer as myself have a life expectancy of up to 2 years. I started palliative chemo in June, only 4 cycles and im nearly on my 4th. Im seeing my oncologist in August to see if its worked and slowed things down. My diagnosis now is Metastatic colorectal cancer with peritoneal disease.
Im struggling this time round, dont know if its the chemo or just me.. The first time didnt seem as bad as i was recovering from surgery, then chemo then i was ok. Didnt really have time to sit and think about things as i was pretty traumatized from surgery. I cry daily, over anything and everything. Ive cried whilst writing this. I thought i was alright with the whole thing and realize now ive just been putting on a brave face. Everyone says '' oh your dealing with it really well '' when really im not. Im not even sure how i feel anymore.
I dont really know what to expect from being on here but thanks for reading.
Thanks Annette. I'm sorry buying thought I had replied to you on here.
Love Helen 
Helen
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Helen
