First scan results tomorrow. How to mentally prepare for bad news?

I'm on immunotherapy only.  I had a month of steroids to reverse eGFR but it's not back to normal levels, just acceptable levels.  It's important that blood markers are within the normal range.  That's what the consultant is accountable for - to approve that your system is capable of taking the drugs on board.  Most of the benefits in immunotherapy  are at the start.  Trials have shown that once control is achieved, missing treatments don't change the final outcome. Even knowing that at the time didn't help.  If your body can't function properly you die of organ failure sooner and not cancer later  The blood markers are there as an important indicator.   These are really strong drugs which necessitate careful management. . . . .  I view it that the delays are there for safety reasons and to make sure you get the optimum benefit for you, from the treatment.   

Thanks Mmum

I know deep down that the oncologist have my best interests at heart.

I think I need to change my mindset when it comes to the treatments.

At the moment I think: Missing a treatment =less life.

When in actual fact missing a treatment because blood levels aren't right could mean they're saving my life.

Thanks for helping me realise that.  X