THE ORIGINAL GANG OF MUSHROOM ROPE BUILDERS (i.e Mel & Em's thread cont...)

Hey guys

Tis i the doll.

Just a pop on to say hi and that i am thinking of you all - seems to be a funny time for many of us but this place never fails to amaze me by the support offered by so many who are all going along their own rocky paths - girls and guys you all deserve a pat on the back you is all ab fab.

Big hugs or as bern would say group hug YEAAAAA - sorry not mention you all by name but blonde head on tonight.

Love to you all

The doll

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Oi ! Stop typing on the computer and find me a bloody plumber !!!!!

Yes I have been waiting three bleeding weeks everybody.

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hee hee mushroom still no joy - hey whats with the name change - where be mellybub has she been abducted by aliens???

Along with the plumber eh.

Loves you weather you melanie or mellybub

Me

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P.S. if that was you attempt at hiding from us u is not doing a great job of it - hee hee

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Hello....... Knock Knock, Can I come in?
I have been a users of Em's thread, and many of you have been kind enough to post back to me on that thread, plus a few threads I started myself. It just amazes me how supportive to each other you guys are and I am finding things hard going just at the moment. My Dad passed away 3 weeks ago after a relatively short battle (7 months) against Oesphaguel cancer ( have written that word so many times now, but still struggle to spell it ). Since he passed I feel like I'm living in this strange blurred world, not knowing whether the last 7 months really happened and then today I couldnt stop crying. Ive just seemed to cry at anything and everything, so I guess reality is very slowly starting to set in. Em did invite me over to this thread when Dad was still alive, and I felt that I didnt want to intrude, but now he has passed away and I'm starting to notice that I'm entering that realisation and sadness phase, i feel abit lost and alone, even though i have a great family around me. Michelle xxxxxxx

How did you guess it was me? ? ?

Love you, be good, phone home !

Sorry it's just our little saying reminds me of the film ET. Be good, phone home.

Now that you are getting old old old, you kinda have the same wrinkles as ET, but does your finger light up?

Remember~ I'll be right here.

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Welcome Michelle,

So sorry that it's all starting to be so real for you now.

I am in complete denial (Mum left 7 weeks ago) and I have found denial a very nice place to be. Mum is on a fabulous holiday, the tickets were a bargain courtesy of the the hospice, and think of the Airmiles !!!!

Seriously though, Our hearts are broken, they will never be the same, but we survive each day by supporting each other. I wish there was something I could say or do that would make you feel better, but I hope knowing that you are not alone helps in some small way.

All my love

Melanie X

Hey Michelle

Welcome to the house - hey em has given you a key so no knocking necessary just let your self in hun.

You will find lots of support on this thread and this whole site - it never fails to amaze me how supportative and loving the people around here are.

Im sorry you find yourself in the place that you are but now you will never be alone again - people all around you now know exactly how you are feeling and where you is at.

Big hugs to you hun.

Helen

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Right melanie - I DONT LIKE YOUR TONE OF VOICE WITH THE WRINKLES COMMENT - YOU WANT ME TO PHONE HOME THEN STOP WITH THE INSULTS - hee hee,

I have just one word to say - PLUMBER - hee hee

I have to say that when we do say that i think of ET tooooooo so great minds think alike or fools . . .

Thanks hun you have helped me heaps tonight and yes i know you be there - ob not for me but waiting for the F*****g Plumber - hee hee

Right yes my finger does light up especially when parafin is squirted onto it and a match put to it. What do you think - i is human really so no fingers not light up and i is not OLD OLD OLD.

Thanks hun you is ab fab

Love me the wrinkly doll - now sulking doll - boo hoo

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Sorry I missed an Old, it should have read OLD OLD OLD..OLD because you are nearly Farty, I mean Forty !!!!!!! he he he, Do you realise that is a whole seperate decade from my age group?

Don't even think about telling me you are in your 20's Michelle, as I am enjoying being the youngster.

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Hi Mel,

I love your sense of humour!! I know exactly what you mean about the holiday, I feel that and still feel that, yet today I just felt so sad. I went to mum and dads house, mum was out, and I just found myself wandering around their house, smelling Dads clothes, looking for paper with his writing on, then I even found myself driving 10 miles in the opposite direction to where I lived to drive around the area he grew up in. I even sat outside the house he lived in when he was growing up... I guess i'm just searching for something/someone to tell me he is still alive, he's just sunning himself somewhere nice and warm..... I wonder how many airmiles u get for a trip to heaven??
I wont dwell on it too much, but i just wanted to add how much your posts have helped me, particulalry the brave one about your mums final few hours, if it helps, i was with dad too on his final few days and several times I re-read your post and it gave me such strength.

Love to all, Michelle xxxxxxx

Such a shame that michelle has now gone as now i have no one to talk to - oh sorry did i miss someone out -

Hello can you hear me

is there someone there

is there a plumber there - oh no must have been my imagination no one else there.

Just to let you all know if anyone is reading i is still in me thirties so there.

Bye

Helen - (in her thirties)

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